Could I give up?
I have been wanting to update this blog, but everytime I want to, something distracts me and I end up not posting =). Each day, I kinda have a different line/phrase that I thought,'wait a minute, maybe it's a good title for my next entry'. But I can recall them when I am in front of my computer now.
Life isn't easy lately. Uni life sucks. I am at the edge where I am totally clueless about where I am going in life. Some facts are: I know I want to stay in Melbourne. I don't want to go back to Indo to do all the shitty things I thought I would have there. Next, I need to be here for my brother's coming to Melb for his Uni. Therefore, I can't go home yet and I never dream of going back.
However, doing Master of Pro. Accounting is a torture. I really don't think I belong to Accounting. Not that I don't want to try or maybe put more effort. I do, and I will always do try. At this stage, I can't deny the fact. Had some mid-semester exam, assignment, etc..and they turn out to be not good. These things can't lie. They reflect something. Could I give up? I have ever thought of transfering my Master from accounting back to communication. Dina (my housemate) told me, I can consider that. In life, I guess, it's partly true that U would rather do something U like rather then doing something that others need U to like. Though I know this fact applies to me too, but now, I am indecisive.
Life lately..hhmm..Not too good. Have so many issues with people around me who I love most. I had problems with one of my housemates. Who would expect her to be that childish? Oh God! Am at that stage when I can't give a shit anymore. I really have enough. Of course, no one will think that it's their fault is smtg happen. I have this thought, maybe it's from my mum, that if smtg happens and goes wrong..it's never one's party fault. It's both party. Thus, if I have 'conflict' with my housemate, maybe it's my fault too. BUT, for this incident..it didn't work that way.
I am positively sure that I don't want to lose anyone as my friend. I know, things have been a little bit intense lately. Have been through a lot of questioning too.
:June
Life isn't easy lately. Uni life sucks. I am at the edge where I am totally clueless about where I am going in life. Some facts are: I know I want to stay in Melbourne. I don't want to go back to Indo to do all the shitty things I thought I would have there. Next, I need to be here for my brother's coming to Melb for his Uni. Therefore, I can't go home yet and I never dream of going back.
However, doing Master of Pro. Accounting is a torture. I really don't think I belong to Accounting. Not that I don't want to try or maybe put more effort. I do, and I will always do try. At this stage, I can't deny the fact. Had some mid-semester exam, assignment, etc..and they turn out to be not good. These things can't lie. They reflect something. Could I give up? I have ever thought of transfering my Master from accounting back to communication. Dina (my housemate) told me, I can consider that. In life, I guess, it's partly true that U would rather do something U like rather then doing something that others need U to like. Though I know this fact applies to me too, but now, I am indecisive.
Life lately..hhmm..Not too good. Have so many issues with people around me who I love most. I had problems with one of my housemates. Who would expect her to be that childish? Oh God! Am at that stage when I can't give a shit anymore. I really have enough. Of course, no one will think that it's their fault is smtg happen. I have this thought, maybe it's from my mum, that if smtg happens and goes wrong..it's never one's party fault. It's both party. Thus, if I have 'conflict' with my housemate, maybe it's my fault too. BUT, for this incident..it didn't work that way.
I am positively sure that I don't want to lose anyone as my friend. I know, things have been a little bit intense lately. Have been through a lot of questioning too.
:June
posted by June at 9:08 AM
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