Unforgivable sinner

Emotion fluctuates. One day I can be really happy, another day I can be darn 'dead'. Please excuse me. Though my motto is to 'expect the unexpected', it hardly works. I have been through a lot of 'pain' lately. Don't want to make others worry about me, coz seriuosly I AM fine. Happiness won't last..thus now, the 'unhappy' time rules (in my life now). I have been in this circle and stupidly refuse to get out. Feeling a bit disappointed with myself, with all the un-solved problems. Too tired to hang in there. All I know is that, I am not a perfect or ideal human being, I do have mistakes in my life. I tell myself though, I will never have the word 'regret'. Coz I do want to treasure every single step I have taken. If I choose to do A, I have to face the consequences without regret.

I know, there are people with worst scenarios. Therefore, I know I can pass this. Don't freak out..ok? I went to my first counselling session @ RMIT last Tuesday. First time in my life that I thought I needed one. Just to let it all out..and need objective opinion. Thus, I decided to go when on that day all my group-members ditched me by cancelling the 'supposed to be a meeting-session in the library'. Haha..it's not them to blame though =) There are a lot of uncertainties in my life that I need to find the answer to. I wish soon.

:June