Is this for real?

Holiday starts, yay..it's the semester break that everyone has been waiting for. I had a presentation this morning. It wasn't the best but I was quite happy. I didn't know what happen, these days, I haven't been really well. Keep coughing..In Class, I volunteered to go first for the presentation. And I left the class at least 3 times..for coughing. Didn't want to interrupt my classmates who were presenting when they got their turn. Sorry Mates!!

Tonight is a cosy night. It will be nice if I am not alone. Well, I wish. Something comes to my mind now. I doubt people can do 100%ly what they say. Would U actually really wish your EX 'good luck' and happy with his/her new someone..do U sincerely mean what U say? Able to get rid of 'bond'? It's hard if the feeling is profoundly bound. Although, there is no official relationship declared..but, for sure, it will be a shock when U hear that your still-loved-one is moving on now..he/she is experiencing a new 'love' life now. What do U think your first reaction will be? Would U really wish he/she the best happy life? Or your heart is actually trying to deny it?

I am lucky enough to bump into Allan tonight. Strange thing happens again....Meeting, patiently waiting..bye2 and Hi again. It's just weird to find that he is chatting few minutes before his meeting in progress. He actually has that time, or let me put it this way..he is willing to have that few minutes between to chat with me. Then he excuses himself..then leaves the conversation properly. What a weird situation. Shouldn't exagerrate the situation but I don't know how to respond. It's just weird to have an older male friend, a mature working man to actually has his precious time for me, this young-Uni-student. How do I actually position him in me. Do I just look at this guy as a guardian, a person who can be there give me advices when I need him to. Or should I not look at him this way. I have to underline this, it feels like a real comfort when this sweet thing happens in one of my mundane life in Melbourne with no BF or Crush. HHmm...is that an excuse?