Forward or backward

Most people don't normally think backwards. Past is the past. So, why do I need to always look back? If I think about what happened last week or yesterday, it's what other people do too. But when it comes to this, thinking about what happened years back..it's not a good sign.

Anyway...yesterday wasn't the best day. I had a presentation, which I think didn't go very well. I knew it before i even started, but I couldn't change it. And another extra annoying thing is a classmate of mine starts to bother me a lot. He is just annoying. Even when I went online MSN, I have to set myself BUSY to avoid him from calling me.. wicked huh?

Yet there's something nice too. Nice to know that people can actually trust you and willing to share their problem with U. Especially when you actually want them to share it with U. *wink* I guess, everyone does have their own problem. It's whether they want to speak out loud, share it with at least someone, or just keep it within themselves. Though I would say,having someone is the best. I can go insane if I don't have.

There are just so many memories that I can't NOT think. I do wish I can turn back time..unfortunately, it will never happened. People who have painted the picture of my life and coloured it. Poeple who make me keep their messages and never want to delete them and I haven't. People who make me write my diary. Someone who make me now realise that I am too 'stupid' not to know or get the hints. Regret? yes, I do regret. It will be selfish though to ask that someone to treat me the way he used to. Well, I can just sealed this beautiful chapter.

Now, I want to keep myself firm. Phantom of my past, hopefully it will fade away yet it will never vanish.