The evil side of me
Yesterday night, Jen stayed over my house. She had drinks with her friends and also with Shannon. This morning I woke up with guilt. I could have given the key to her, so I wouldn't need to wake up in the middle of the night to open my apartment door for her. Which I don't mind..Really! After talking to Jack and Jim this afternoon while I was working, they made me think, I don't trust my friend enough. Why can't I give the key to Jen yesterday night? I feel terribly bad the whole afternoon. I do trust my friend, but sometimes I find myself a little too protective and anti-social..maybe. This is the evil side of me which sometimes freaks me out too. I apologize if I have been a bad person, a bad friend.
I couldn't ask for more. I spent almost a day with Ant last Thursday. He came at 10.30 am, pretty early. I thought, I would be going with him to see his Boss. It's all cancelled. So, the whole day is just for us. We ate lunch @ Paramount. Went to the $9 Lunch Box, Korean..Yum2. Then we walked all the way to Federation Square and took pictures of Xmas decorations in Melb. Got back home and rested for a while..*winks*..and went to Uni with Ant coz he had some stuffs to do. I enjoy the time I have with Ant so much. At least for now, for this year, for these few days before I go back to Indo.
Now I am trying hard to survive with my tight budget. Till my mum comes on Tuesday morning. I don't know why I am not that excited as I thought I would be. Maybe it's becoz my mum herself is not that excited for her 5 days trip to Melb for my graduation. For her, it might be a responsibility as a MUM. I understand that. Coz I am not the only child in the family. Mum has other concern that is more important than my graduation. Indeed, that's real. Money maybe the other hassle. Next year, my younger Bro is going to Uni. That means more money to spend. When I think about it, my Mum and Dad seem to have no choice to choose from YET. They still need to 'support' us. Regardless of what the situation is, I love them the way they are.
Current situation: Trying hard to stand up on my own feet..
June
I couldn't ask for more. I spent almost a day with Ant last Thursday. He came at 10.30 am, pretty early. I thought, I would be going with him to see his Boss. It's all cancelled. So, the whole day is just for us. We ate lunch @ Paramount. Went to the $9 Lunch Box, Korean..Yum2. Then we walked all the way to Federation Square and took pictures of Xmas decorations in Melb. Got back home and rested for a while..*winks*..and went to Uni with Ant coz he had some stuffs to do. I enjoy the time I have with Ant so much. At least for now, for this year, for these few days before I go back to Indo.
Now I am trying hard to survive with my tight budget. Till my mum comes on Tuesday morning. I don't know why I am not that excited as I thought I would be. Maybe it's becoz my mum herself is not that excited for her 5 days trip to Melb for my graduation. For her, it might be a responsibility as a MUM. I understand that. Coz I am not the only child in the family. Mum has other concern that is more important than my graduation. Indeed, that's real. Money maybe the other hassle. Next year, my younger Bro is going to Uni. That means more money to spend. When I think about it, my Mum and Dad seem to have no choice to choose from YET. They still need to 'support' us. Regardless of what the situation is, I love them the way they are.
Current situation: Trying hard to stand up on my own feet..
June
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