Officially Alone
Valene's Birthday was on Tuesday, Nov 29. With Irene and Jen, we all started with Kimchi lunch @ Paramount Food Court in China town. It was the cheapest I could get with my favourite side dishes. And at night, we went to the Koko restaurant @ Crown. Eating Japanese food, it's kinda a challenge for me. It's not I couldn't eat or I don't like eating. I am in the process of learning. Back in Indo, I hardly ate Japanese food except Sushi. Cooked Sushi rolls. Ha2. I don't care about the food that night. What I love most and I treasure was the moment I had with the girls. I can't believe it, today is the 1st of December. Next year, it will be so much different. One by one..they are all leaving.
On that night, San called me from HK. I didn't realised till I got home and checked my diary, it was her birthday too. I felt terribly sorry. I am a really bad friend. But I do and seriously do wish San a happy Birthday, and I need to tell her, I will really miss her next year when she goes to US.
All my housemates are back in Indo now. That's why..I am officially alone for the coming few weeks. It's a challenge. Ant says that he will keep me company when he can. That's good enough. And I have Fadhilah and Gavin came and visit me yesterday. It was fun.
Btw, I had my Graduation Gawn collected yesterday. WOW...it's too big. And I went back to change to the size S, so I won't look too much like Harry Potter. I look soo funny with that gawn though.
I got a Job! I was sooo happy. Never feel so alive before. I realise that I can never initiate myself to do so. To apply a job, I am too passive compared to people around me. Need to stop comparing, coz June is Juni. Yet, It's really hard not to. Honestly.
I will not work till March next year, at the Commonwealth Games , helping the caterers. Thanks Ant!
Gavin came over yesterday night. He stayed over at my house doing homework that is overdued. OMG. I knew that I couldn't help much. All I can do is support him, I guess. We had dinner together. Chatted for quite a while. I was like a mum, kept bugging him to do work. Hopefully, I wasn't being too 'annoying'..
Btw, Yesterday night, all of a sudden, I feel that I have an emotional pain in my heart. I felt that there's something wrong with me. Is it sadness, loneliness or guilt? It's really hard for me to choose, to be true to myself and sentimental at the same time. Or to be realistic and not let myself go with the flow. I would love to treasure every second I have filled with happiness. Potentially, there'll be regrets. Black and White, it doesn't apply in me. There'll be always the grey area which is never clear. I am always 'trapped' in the middle. It is thus how people may think that I am indecisive and that I think too much. I can make myself happy, can't I? As long as, I am responsible of what I do, I am happy with that. If I have to suffer I can still survive. I have to be tough enough ;)
June
On that night, San called me from HK. I didn't realised till I got home and checked my diary, it was her birthday too. I felt terribly sorry. I am a really bad friend. But I do and seriously do wish San a happy Birthday, and I need to tell her, I will really miss her next year when she goes to US.
All my housemates are back in Indo now. That's why..I am officially alone for the coming few weeks. It's a challenge. Ant says that he will keep me company when he can. That's good enough. And I have Fadhilah and Gavin came and visit me yesterday. It was fun.
Btw, I had my Graduation Gawn collected yesterday. WOW...it's too big. And I went back to change to the size S, so I won't look too much like Harry Potter. I look soo funny with that gawn though.
I got a Job! I was sooo happy. Never feel so alive before. I realise that I can never initiate myself to do so. To apply a job, I am too passive compared to people around me. Need to stop comparing, coz June is Juni. Yet, It's really hard not to. Honestly.
I will not work till March next year, at the Commonwealth Games , helping the caterers. Thanks Ant!
Gavin came over yesterday night. He stayed over at my house doing homework that is overdued. OMG. I knew that I couldn't help much. All I can do is support him, I guess. We had dinner together. Chatted for quite a while. I was like a mum, kept bugging him to do work. Hopefully, I wasn't being too 'annoying'..
Btw, Yesterday night, all of a sudden, I feel that I have an emotional pain in my heart. I felt that there's something wrong with me. Is it sadness, loneliness or guilt? It's really hard for me to choose, to be true to myself and sentimental at the same time. Or to be realistic and not let myself go with the flow. I would love to treasure every second I have filled with happiness. Potentially, there'll be regrets. Black and White, it doesn't apply in me. There'll be always the grey area which is never clear. I am always 'trapped' in the middle. It is thus how people may think that I am indecisive and that I think too much. I can make myself happy, can't I? As long as, I am responsible of what I do, I am happy with that. If I have to suffer I can still survive. I have to be tough enough ;)
June
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