Should there be any boundary?
Caution: this post is about feeling, relationship..If U are not in that mood, please skip ;)
Does history repeat? I live my life today, but then I realize that I am afraid of my past. Afraid that the same bad history will repeat itself. And I am sure, the pain will double this time around.
Honestly, the past week has given my 'used-to-have' life. I find myself hypnotized by the attention someone new has given me. He is for real, not virtual as MR. 28. Though it has only been a week I know him, it feels like a month. Probably becoz we talk a lot. Well, what can I say? I am so upfront and I couldn't think of the reason why I am. It's just a good feeling to have this kind of affection I have been longing for ages.
I don't know where this is going. Honestly I don't. It might be to fast to jump into any conclusion. I am NOT going out with him though. As what my friends have been telling me, that I have to 'BE CAREFUL'.
I am wondering, should there be any boundary in a relationship? I am not sure where we are going, but can I just let everything flow the way it is? Should there be any rules? For example, people need to have a 'friendship-base' relationship before they go any further. This is to prevent the aftermath of the potential break-up in the future. Who plan to break up anyway?
But it's quite true, that it is either you continue until the marriage, or you'll break up, Only becoz U don't have any friendship base relationship, Rather because He likes U as a future-GF. How can I justify this? Coz it's easy to put the theory in, but to act upon it..it's Hard.
Not only I am named a 'Worrier',I guess I am. Now, typing this message, I think about my past relationship too. Am I too afraid to risk again? The past relatinship with a new stranger that had left me with an uncurable wound, which traumatize me now. I don't want any Dejavu in this. About letting-go too, should I be carefree to let my EX know what I am experiencing something new? Should I worry about him accepting this? Or am I being too 'thoughtful' on his behalf. I do worry about a lot of things. I worry that I do something wrong, or say something wrong. AS the results, I will 'lose' what I have had. Everytime now, when I have the free-time, I keep asking myself, "the last time I chatted with him, did I say this or that? Is he now thinking about my flaws?..etc". I guess, my biggest fear now is Judgement. It really is.
Today: Handed my last PR assignment. Work 12-3pm @ Nandos (no one cute came though, Haha). Finished work and have a 'trip'. Max Brenner-Swanston St walk-sunshine-Federation Square-chit chat-Tram/Train-Home...Haha. It's a Looooooooooooong story ;)
And I still have one more Essay due this Friday..then Fiji. And 'After-Fiji' plan is also waiting for me..
June
Does history repeat? I live my life today, but then I realize that I am afraid of my past. Afraid that the same bad history will repeat itself. And I am sure, the pain will double this time around.
Honestly, the past week has given my 'used-to-have' life. I find myself hypnotized by the attention someone new has given me. He is for real, not virtual as MR. 28. Though it has only been a week I know him, it feels like a month. Probably becoz we talk a lot. Well, what can I say? I am so upfront and I couldn't think of the reason why I am. It's just a good feeling to have this kind of affection I have been longing for ages.
I don't know where this is going. Honestly I don't. It might be to fast to jump into any conclusion. I am NOT going out with him though. As what my friends have been telling me, that I have to 'BE CAREFUL'.
I am wondering, should there be any boundary in a relationship? I am not sure where we are going, but can I just let everything flow the way it is? Should there be any rules? For example, people need to have a 'friendship-base' relationship before they go any further. This is to prevent the aftermath of the potential break-up in the future. Who plan to break up anyway?
But it's quite true, that it is either you continue until the marriage, or you'll break up, Only becoz U don't have any friendship base relationship, Rather because He likes U as a future-GF. How can I justify this? Coz it's easy to put the theory in, but to act upon it..it's Hard.
Not only I am named a 'Worrier',I guess I am. Now, typing this message, I think about my past relationship too. Am I too afraid to risk again? The past relatinship with a new stranger that had left me with an uncurable wound, which traumatize me now. I don't want any Dejavu in this. About letting-go too, should I be carefree to let my EX know what I am experiencing something new? Should I worry about him accepting this? Or am I being too 'thoughtful' on his behalf. I do worry about a lot of things. I worry that I do something wrong, or say something wrong. AS the results, I will 'lose' what I have had. Everytime now, when I have the free-time, I keep asking myself, "the last time I chatted with him, did I say this or that? Is he now thinking about my flaws?..etc". I guess, my biggest fear now is Judgement. It really is.
Today: Handed my last PR assignment. Work 12-3pm @ Nandos (no one cute came though, Haha). Finished work and have a 'trip'. Max Brenner-Swanston St walk-sunshine-Federation Square-chit chat-Tram/Train-Home...Haha. It's a Looooooooooooong story ;)
And I still have one more Essay due this Friday..then Fiji. And 'After-Fiji' plan is also waiting for me..
June
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