My mum and Dad are coming

Guess what, after years of hoping that my parent (both of them) would come to Melbourne. At last, they are actually coming. Exactly 1 week from now. I am glad and do welcome them. However apparently the reason is not me.

I feel distance from everyone at the moment. Though I have these all great friends around me, I feel I could have done more for them. I could have appreciate them more instead of worrying too much about me and my life and unconciously I am 'ignoring' them. As much as I want to know about their updates, but most of the time I get distracted with my problem. I am sorry! We are not physically distant, but I feel mentally distant. Like now, I am sitting in front of my computer, but I don't feel like I am connecting myself with my Bro who is always busy with the computer (we hardly talk now) and my housemate who is talking on the phone.

Maybe I shouldn't be hoping that much. Becoz by hoping, I will get hurt again. I don't want to be too-good with anyone right now. Coz I am sick of being loved. And I hate to love coz I will end up getting hurt.

I do want to recover!

:June