Cynicism
There are things which need to be done, and they are done.
Finally, I moved in to the new apartment at Docklands. Now I have my own room, and my brother has his. The whole process had been frustrating. often, I jumped into my own conclusions and I got pissed off. Now I know, I can never depend on anybody BUT myself. However, there are still things that are not quite right yet in this new apartment. My housemate is still staying with me and my Bro. Temporarily he stays in the living room until he finds his new place. Thus, it isn't a ideal home I would have imagined it to be. Well...I hope it is soon, then I could really have it the way I want it to be.
I have been cynical too lately. I have changed. I couldn't care less about others who don't really care about how to value others. If they demand something, I could do the same thing too, can't I? I will not let others make me think that I am less good as a friend, as a sister, as a housemate, as an ex (gf or housemate), or as a friend's friend, etc. I remember once (or actually few occassions) when people tell me that I need to stand up for myself, be more firm, and do not let other 'dominate' me. When I think about it, it's true. I don't have to be nasty, I just have to have others respect your decisions. At this point, I realise, there is no point to keep trying to keep others happy, because no one can please everybody. Often, you will have disappointed somebody else. As long as I've tried your best to please them, aligning this attempt with what I feel like doing, it's good enough. It is hard to retain relationship. Thus, if I have tried, and it doesn't work with them, it's their lost.
(PS: 12.08.07)
:June
Finally, I moved in to the new apartment at Docklands. Now I have my own room, and my brother has his. The whole process had been frustrating. often, I jumped into my own conclusions and I got pissed off. Now I know, I can never depend on anybody BUT myself. However, there are still things that are not quite right yet in this new apartment. My housemate is still staying with me and my Bro. Temporarily he stays in the living room until he finds his new place. Thus, it isn't a ideal home I would have imagined it to be. Well...I hope it is soon, then I could really have it the way I want it to be.
I have been cynical too lately. I have changed. I couldn't care less about others who don't really care about how to value others. If they demand something, I could do the same thing too, can't I? I will not let others make me think that I am less good as a friend, as a sister, as a housemate, as an ex (gf or housemate), or as a friend's friend, etc. I remember once (or actually few occassions) when people tell me that I need to stand up for myself, be more firm, and do not let other 'dominate' me. When I think about it, it's true. I don't have to be nasty, I just have to have others respect your decisions. At this point, I realise, there is no point to keep trying to keep others happy, because no one can please everybody. Often, you will have disappointed somebody else. As long as I've tried your best to please them, aligning this attempt with what I feel like doing, it's good enough. It is hard to retain relationship. Thus, if I have tried, and it doesn't work with them, it's their lost.
(PS: 12.08.07)
:June
posted by June at 3:16 PM
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