One sentence is never enough

I stayed over Jen's house yesterday night. Met Jen's mum for the first time. She is not as what I have expected her to be, she is much more loving and such as an easy-going mum. This morning, she drove us all to the Cuckoo restaurant up at Dandenong. It was a nice German buffet restaurant. If only I can eat that much. And that restaurant left me with one thing, I want the Cuckoo clock..it was so classy and cute ;) Went shopping with the girls after the lunch, and guess what, me and Irene bought a CD, with great French Stars of the 30s and 40s, La Vie Parisienne .

Btw, on Thrusday I had lunch with Gavin. The big protective brother. It was a nice feeling, to know what I can actually help him. I am really worried about his Uni work right now, which is 'undone' yet. I hope, I can help..don't want to be too bossy though.

Last Tuesday was Karni's Bday. An unpleasant surprise from her early morning on her Bday. But lucky, in the end the day, the surprise party Jackson has planned worked. Ant, Jimmy and Linda came too. It was good. I do hope, Karni will be more mature in her 21st. Hopefully, she changes gradually, do be less 'unstable' and be more 'loveable'. Ha2. Love her the way she is though.

My feeling now. I think Karma works. Believe it or not. Now, I am experiencing the uncertainty that guys normally feel. You can't clap hands with only one hand. Both hands have to contribute. It's soooooo easy to say, but it's hard to do. I think, I am in a crisis with my own feeling now. I want to believe in my feeling that I like someone, but too afraid to get hurt too. Am I letting myself fall into a hole full of roses with their thorns.
I always want to ask "What am I to U?" while I know the answer to that question. I don't want to be anyone's GF! Not asking for a relationship, though it might seem like it. But I don't! I just need to clarify what's going on. It's not a social responsibility I have to fulfill. It's just a self-justification for myself. I need to know where I stand, and whether I should stand there...or I should 'free' myself? but deep inside my heart, I know I unconciously build my hope. Which I should not be doing right now. I can't ask anyone's help. Who can help me is myself.

June

My first time

There will be always the 'first time' for everything. And this morning, I was late to work. I woke up at 12 am, and I was supposed to work at 12am. Oups..I blamed the alarm clock on my mobile phone..Lucky Jimmy was the manager in charge, and He knew I would have come. I called him, and let him know, I would be there in 1/2 hour. And I did, after my quick shower..hehe. I was starving though, with no breakfast and lunch..

Anyway, I had so much fun yesterday in KNox City. Alive again. I don't know how to explain, but I was just soooo happy. got there around 3pm. Knox City Shopping Centre and I ended up buying nothing in the end of the day. Instead of shopping, we went to watch SAW 2 , smart but depressing movie. Had a nice dinner in a restaurant, forgot what it's called, a cousin of Mecca Bah restaurant in Dockland. NIce..I love the Pizza..Yum2.
O yeah...Ant was with us. It was so much fun. Now, everyone met everyone.

Continue (updated on the 21/Nov) ..I shouldn't be procastinating. Every time I post an entry, I hardly can recall what I want to write. Either it has been a while..or coz I am too conscious that people are gonna read this. This is not the first time though.

Btw..working at Nandos sometimes is stressful. Yesterday night, there was a thief in the restaurant. One customer lost his bag. Sometimes, I don't know who to blame. Who would leave their bag on the floor, definitely not me. Then should I blame the customer who was not careful, or myself who was not aware of the situation when I should have had? I was upset the on that night, I felt bad. But nothing I could do.

June

Overwhelmed

Officially, I have moved in QV, my new home in the city of Melbourne. The housewarming party was on last Satuday, Nov 12. Everyone came, especially all the Indo friends. Not my closest friends too. I wish the gals were there, though it was too late when I realized I didn't tell them properly about this housewarming party. Felt terribly bad. Btw, Ant, Jim & Linda came :). One more extra fun was Yenny, a girl I knew last June. She is soooooooo like a housemate, wish she is. Had so much fun with her for the last 1 week. Thanks for the stories..and also 'advices'.

Last Monday, I watched Elizabethtown with Ant. Not too bad. Went to see the Myer windows display. And had a dinner with Ant and friends, coz Kaz was leaving the next day. I tasted a tiramisu in a pub, the alcohol is sooo strong. Long day..and 7 hours 'out'side the house *winks*

Fiji Time

BULA........
(That's the Fijian way of greeting). Couldn't believe it, I am back from Fiji. Though, there were some ups and downs, it was so much fun. Four Chicks rocked Hideaway Resort in Fiji. Haha

In Fiji, there are some phrases that U will always hear. 1st up is "BULA", it's how U greet people. It's like saying "Hello". Though it can mean "Bless U" once people sniff. The 2nd one is "It's Fiji Time" which indicates that there's no rush in Fiji. It's Ok to lay back and relax..Wow. Then, "Vinaka" which means Thank You.

6 days 5 nights, just perfect. We went to Namuamua village on the 2nd day, where the traditional food called Palusami was served.
Next is the Tivua island, with the Captain Cook Cruise..It's not in the postcard, it's in my Camera, it's the real paradise.Haha..
Then went to Suva where we did our 5 hours non-stop shopping. Tiring though. Along the way, visited the president house with the guard and the parliament house. Last trip was the Cave where I saw the Cannibal Oven...hhmm. So amazing. Can't believe I did those all.

Lucky we all can survive after the tight budget..Haha. Struggling with instant noodles on the last day. The last night we had in Fiji would be the best night. All the girls dressed up in Sulu , the traditional sarong ...it's just a piece of cloth. Hhmm..thanks Valene for the individual specially styled Sulu..With those Sulu, there's no doubt the girls were the central of attention in the resort..Woohoo..Got to know some Aussie blokes, Gavin & Clinton..HHmm..Nice and sweet compared to other drunk ones. Haha..

Too excited to recall all the memories. I did my first Snorkelling with the gals, first crazy night in the resort, got a bit tipsy..and first time when I could say 'I don't care'. Within that 6 days, I missed Mr. Ant, which I shouldn't be.