No one's there

No one is there when I needed them the most. Most of the time, I am all by myself. I really don't mind. Though sometimes it's not a pleasant feeling. I failed 2 of my last semester subjects. Have wasted my parents' money. I am really sorry, mum! Am currently thinking of changing the course. And now, I am actually 'doing' something on it. I applied for a course at Swinburne University, called 'Graduate Diploma of Human Resource Management'. At this stage, I don't know whether I will get the offer or not. And new semester will start soon, it's actually next week. Urgently, I need to know whether the application is successful or not.

I have found a new place to move in with my Brother. Am lucky in this. I never have expected I will get it that soon. My application for this new apartment is done within 2-3 days. Everything seems to go pretty smoothly. Can't ask for more in this. The Malaysian lady who helped me with my application is the agent. I think, she has the full authority from the landlord. Thus she is able to approve my application that quickly. I am really thankful. Meaning, minus one thing to worry about. My brother will soon have his own space to study, that's my priority. I hate the fact that now, he feels like he doesn't really belong to the home that I am sharing with my other housemates at the moment. I am really aware of that. But, I have to wait till the end of this month to move out. I hope, by that time, I will already be certain with the course I have too.

:June

Hopeless

I can't really decribe it..I feel terrible! I fail.
I am not a risk-taker. So, by changing my options, is it considered to be a 'runaway'?

:June